回到马来西亚其实真的很开心

每天都在找机会充实自己还有提升自己

到处都是学习的机会

不是找朋友聚聚，就算是在家里也是会看书

让自己的英文更进步也好，学到更多关于神的东西也好

练琴好像把自己带到另外一个世界一样

觉得自己好像可以跟着音符一起飞翔一样，真的很棒

我在学习让自己变得更棒

跟家人教会朋友的quality time也让我觉得我有一种被valued被尊重的感觉

你的存在可以被人家珍惜

你知道你身边家人朋友给你满满的爱和鼓励

我真的很希望在来临的一年里面可以爱人和造就人

在马来西亚的教会是如此，在澳洲亦然

不单单是大家一直认为的那个很白痴很搞笑的可是里面什么都没有的伊雯

当然自己的能力我做不到，可是我知道我们的主是很大能的

想做得更好因为我不想要浪费上帝给我的恩赐，智慧和现在仍健康的身体

我自己是很卑微很卑微的器皿，可是我想要用自己很微弱的灯光来彰显神的荣耀

当魔鬼要convince我说其他的东西都比上帝能够更加满足我的时候

要学习turn to God，因为喜乐的泉源从祂而来！

'True confidence comes from humbling yourself before God. You need to be humble before you can gain the confidence and contentment from God. Paradoxical but true.'

流水帐

话说昨天早上终于去了好多个月没有去的圣光堂

当初心里有很多的抗拒和不安

怕自己融不进人群中，怕不适应教会的程序

后来觉得其实事情没有想象中那么可怕

那种参不进，不知道何去何从的感觉是难免的，可是看到一些熟人，还是很开心

敬拜赞美的时候 觉得心里有很多的安慰和感触，泪水在眼睛里面打转

看到那些以前好像还是小孩子的少年人成长许多，弹琴的，打鼓的，弹bass的，全部越来越棒

好感动

感动我的不仅是看到他们的进步和成长，更是确切感受到他们愿意敬拜事奉神的心

崇拜会后，跑去找他们

好好笑，鼓手理荣看到我，就对着那堆少年人喊：“你们的偶像回来啦！！” 笑死我

jeremy真的进步好多，我不在的那几个月 他变成了choir的pianist, 越弹越棒

还跟他一起讨论很多chords的配搭还有jazzy chords要怎样用，真好

在爸爸妈妈彩排话剧的时候，传道，jeremy 和我一起讨论sam小提琴的伴奏的编曲

真好玩

如果以后不去做speech pathologist 我干脆该行当词曲创作人算了哈哈

然后回家，吃了晚饭，跟bibilis聊天，怎知换来的是一个新外号 - dingdingwen

不错啦，比猪gu bom 那种东西好听很多

半夜睡到一半醒来，有一种说不上来的昏厥欲作呕感

马上跑到厕所去，然后“哗啦哗啦” 把很多东西都吐出来

吐了再睡 醒了再吐，花了1个小时多才搞定

应该是消化不良

真的好怕那种nauseous 的感觉，很怕

有失必有得

醒来发现肚子扁了，大肚腩不见了哈哈

妈妈说可能是因为吃了那个有机五谷粥，营养过剩才会消化不良

（对啊我吐出来的东西都是五谷粥的紫色。。。）

哈哈难道我有穷人命，不能吃太有营养的东西 o.0

每天都很努力地在找事情做

跟以前放假的我很不同

我终于可以了解那种一直要找事情来分散自己注意力的想法

我在很努力地不要去想

最近都很怕听流行歌。。。

听来听去，不是说恋爱，就是说分手

我很可悲吗？

我很孤独吗？

我很不幸吗？

我很inadequate吗？

感谢主我还不至于这么负面

我只是意识到，失去一样东西，竟然让我发现到我拥有的其实还有很多

让我更感恩

让我懂得更珍惜

我不想跟自己过不去

一直不开心对身体不好呀！！

豁达一点又不会死人

至少过程和平到不得了，又没有大吵大闹我今生今世不要再看到你那种

我，真的已经很幸运了

想起可能永远都不会再见到自己曾经心爱的人，还是会鼻酸

脑袋一片空白 泪珠还是会大大滴地流下来

可能暂时让自己在家里闭关，充充电是好事吧

谁不需要时间去冲淡感情呢？

谁不需要时间让自己变得坚强一点呢？

回忆是美好的，可是把自己锁在回忆里面不前进，只是自欺欺人啊

可是我知道只有这样的outcome才是对我最好的

不应该让已经不可能的东西影响我和家人的quality time才对

当我看似一无所有的时候

我需要的是一颗像小孩子的信心亲近神才对

Every blessing You pour out I'll turn back to praise

When the darkness closes in Lord still I will say 'Blessed be Your Name"

雯雯你不是孤独的！

雯雯加油

你绝对有存在的价值的

the gift of salvation is big enough to be "enough"!

Post Exam Blogging Disorder

Mr Dragonfly says Harlow!

saw this dragonfly outside my room window on a cold rainy night

looks like it's smiling right!!

when i was studying + happily munching on my kitkat

and i realized my lecture notes got reflected on the flat brown Kitkat surface! wah wah wah

haha next time if any of you guys need a mirror you can just go and get a Kitkat! it's edible somemore!

speaking of which, these are my nom nom energy during the exam period..ahh so glad it's over!

just few days before the exam and got myself two pairs of shorts from cotton on (the top left and bottom left) ! 2 for $20!

and then when i came back, phyllis told me she has another pair for me (which was a bit too tight for her HAHAHAHA), so now i have three pairs of shorts for summer!

typical Barnesway family love. i miss florence lah now she's back in hk already

but i'll see her in hk soon! wheeeee

i was super well fed even during exam period! thank you Phyllis for making yummy breakfast! the eggs were abcde1234567-ly good!

reminds me of my secondary school years, when mama would normally make super wholesome breakfast on the day when i have major exams.

sarah ko jiejie super nice loh! she sold us her digital piano (which i LOVE it very very much) and now we can play piano whenever we want!

the headphone quality was super good, with that you can play the piano anytime without waking anyone up! walao listening to my playing = some super pro concert pianist playing hahahaha (self praise equals to no praise wth)

taken right after our last exam!

CAUGHT IN ACTION!

went to melbourne city with our cool speechie gang last Friday!

look at the sleeping beauty there!

so pretty right! i love colourful wooden stuffs!

PINK PINK PIG! OINK

现在的男生上班族很懂得打扮，还会放腮红的 (!!)

saw this at a random handmade skincare shop, it's a shower jelly!!! BOINK BOINK BOINK BOMPAK!

shampoo bars! vanessa said you just have to rub this on your damp hair and lots of bubbles will come out! just like a normal soap but it's a shampoo, woooooh

yerrr they have two pearls i only have one

went to northland today and got all these from Jayjays!!! 果然是天堂

and yes, another pair of shorts AGAIN arghhhh

oh and guess what? i bought these from Typo, 5 for $5 only!!! and the ink came out really smoothly (with glitter!)

everytime i see this it just reminds me of my primary school days when we all loved to use those colourful pens to write on other people's autograph book

HAHA.

i think i've been spending a bit too much these few days. should seriously stop already.

no earthly possessions can compare to the person I should actually focus on..

it's holidays afterall, i really really should spend more time with God and sing songs to praise Him!! yeahhhhh

在网上找到的，怨气很重可是又很可爱的狗狗

Bono 的恋人，恋情只维持不到2个小时

鸭子合家欢，好幸福和谐的画面

我真的很担心你

叫你早一点operate 你拖到现在

我真的不想麻烦你

有时候想到这个就会告诉自己一定要好好努力读书

把握现在所拥有的

我比好多好多人都幸福

所以更要珍惜自己在这里学习的机会，珍惜自己在这里的朋友

更要珍惜自己的家人

我也真的希望你可以早点康复

等我回家的时候

我会好好把驾驶技术练好

不要麻烦你载我去哪里哪里

有些食物吃不到不用紧，顺其自然就好

我不想让你为我操心

我会乖乖待在家里

打扫房子 做菜 帮brownie bambi冲凉，我都可以帮忙

题外话

不是我要埋怨 可是有时候我真的希望自己的国家可以更安全一些，交通更方便更安全一些

很多时候我真的很希望自己可以以自己的国家而感到骄傲

可是 我暂时做不到。

埋怨人民忘恩负义不想待在自己国家工作

倒不如检讨为什么这么多人才会流失

我讲完了。

picturesss!

还有两个多星期就要考试了，有种想要呐喊的感觉 0.0

在health science看到的，好好笑好喜欢

Bigger cup: Do you love me?

Smaller cup: Yes I do!

Bigger cup: Let's get a bit closer!!

Bigger cup: Whoops you're a tad too short for kissing 0.0

Smaller cup: Oh fine whatever =.=

教会一对夫妇的狗狗，chelsea! 跟我家bambi好像！！！狂爱

Vinnie，样子有点犹豫，拍第二张的时候没想到它竟然。。。

hahahaha 本来想放上facebook做display picture，不过姐姐说太吓人。。所以我放了和chelsea 的那张上去 :P

End of Year Dinner '10

这张是2009年end of year dinner拍的。。。

一年后的我们！依旧是我在左边，marian在中间，性感健康小美女在右边 :)

我头发长了好多 0.0

衣服是08年穿去姐姐婚礼的那件，我好喜欢 :)

这位小姐跟去年比起来，更加呃。。高贵，更加。。。香艳。。。。

没有开玩笑啦，这件衣服真的真的很适合她!

非常之不顾形象地拍了好多好多照片，都在facebook哦

难得有机会比joel高，这张真的要留念 :P

最喜欢的还是这张！！！哈哈哈哈哈

只是单纯想过来这里随便写写，不想每次开自己的blog的时候又是看到同一个post 0.0

一年就快要结束，不到两个月就要会马来西亚了。总想做些东西慰劳一下自己的家人，如帮忙弄午餐晚餐之类的。

今年有了自己的厨房，能够做菜煮饭烤东西的机会自然多了一些。。

跟去年比虽然厨艺好像可能或许没有进步很多，不过尝试了一些不同的东西，如ondeh ondeh，banana cake/muffin，蛋挞。。培根白菜，炒面，银针粉，到最近的泡菜煎饼，泡菜炒饭等等的东西。。

这些自己一点一滴慢慢学到的东西 真的好想好想弄给家人吃，尤其是我的婆婆。。希望她在吃到我煮的东西的时候可以感到一丝欣慰。

我发现到，能够让人有推动力继续钻研，继续探索厨艺的，不仅仅是对烹饪的一份热忱，更是因为想要做好吃的东西给自己所爱的人的那个心意（这个是从自己housemate身上发现到的,嘿嘿 :P）

可能这一个推动力我只能从家人里面找到吧，哈哈哈

从18岁开始就在外面读书了，跟家人见面得少，反而感情变得更好

以前觉得爸爸整天骂人很烦，现在反而想念被爸爸骂被妈妈唠叨的日子

当然也觉得自己很幸运可以有机会去到不同的地方读书，学会自立，为理想前进

我是一个很幸福很幸福很幸福的人，所以一定要把握机会好好活下去（不是要寻死，只是有时候会希望耶稣可以快点来接我回天家，那我就不用烦恼这么多东西）

与其一直想念过去的点点滴滴，倒不如努力面前向着标杆直跑

好啦自己乱写一大堆 终于可以去collect laundry了，下次还是放点照片不然闷死看我blog的人

开心不开心

这个礼拜也不尽然是不开心的。

做了重大的决定，看似痛苦 可是我相信outcome会是好的

祂会动工的。

也真的很感谢主，终于拿回australian sign language的成绩

本来以为很可能会fail

没想到竟然拿了个76分

本来以为看错，check了再check 真的是如此

荣耀完完全全归于上帝，这不是我deserve的

“但你耶和华是我四围的盾牌，

是我的荣耀，

又是叫我抬起头来的。” - 诗篇3：3

虽然这两天发生的事情真的很emotionally draining

可是我相信接下来所回面对的困难，主都会把它们化成最美的祝福。

***

You give and take away

My heart will choose to say: "Lord blessed be Your name".

september happenings

BOMMMMM!

it's been almost 2 weeks since i last blogged, so now i'm going to bombard this post with lots and lots of pictures and let them do all the talking


my wardrobe doesn't like me, it scratched me when i was putting my clothes back T.T



ordered some stuffs from sasa few weeks ago. my sister and i bought together in order to achieve the 75USD total purchase (can get free shipping for any purchase over 75USD!) so right after the stuffs were sent to her place, she sent my stuffs over to melb :)

sending stuffs from hobart to tasmania is pretty quick, takes about 4 working days :)

spot the little parcel behind the book! saw this when i came back from class.

yays...face wash, eye makeup remover, some serums and cream cream. can last for quite long :)

i love the feeling of expecting and receiving a parcel, happily opening it and take the goodies out one by one!!

Cadbury BrunchBar!! om nom nom goodness~~~~got 1 small packet from medion and i am totally in love with it! but aiyah must wait until got offer (he got it for $2) then only buy lah..the normal price is around $6 i guess?

last tuesday last tuesday last tuesday's weather was shuuuper good! so sunny and warm :D caught up with kate and we sat on the grass. i didn't know how much a weather can affect one's mood until i came to melbourne.

winter was obviously pretty depressing, imagine enduring the cold for 3 months! well spring is pretty cold too, but seeing the flowers blossoming and showing the vibrant colours is much better than almost flower-less winter :)

hahaha this is what i saw in the laundry area..this is probably the smallest washing machine (and hottest!) i've even seen :P

what i saw in the class. sarah definitely loves to write on her banana!

last monday i went to marian's room and saw her pink bear's new partner!

ze cute sandwich!!! currently her ipod pouch :)

pink bear bear going to feast on the sandwich :D:D:D:D

BUT...

the green lizard was actually eyeing on the sandwich too!! from far behind!

"That's one small step for a man, but one giant leap for a lizard."

and so........

the pink bear got really freaked out and she pushed the poor sandwich away (who would want to eat a lizard-invaded-sandwich?)



satisfied, the lizard said :"haha, mine, ALL MINE!"

lolll that's so random of me to think of a storyline like this.





went to Sofia few days ago, yummmmeh (except the lasagna, my bad)

look at the portion!

ohh saw this downstairs of Agora Theatre!

HAHAHAHAwas praying hard for Phyllis who entered the toilet coz we didn't want her legs to get chopped off nor to get involved in human trafficking :P


the next one is really epic!

HAHAHAHAHA cannot enter this toilet ahh! or else you'll get transformed from a male into an ET!

seriously, those people have nothing else better to do, scraping the words off ah!





oh yeah oh yeah i made nasi lemak (yes, nasi lemak!) for the very first time! got the recipe from mirosha, cooked for 7 people in the mid-autumn festival dinner party

cooking the rice (when i took this photo i was like "good luck ah...can't afford to fail")

wah then thank God ah, it was yummy! they liked it :P

hiap lai made really good curry fish, i really really loveeee it!

had mooncake that night too. not a big fan of mooncake though hahaha

then while the guys talking about business and $$$ and future (those very practical stuffs) we girls went upstairs and did some hair curling and camwhore!

minyi did a pretty great job! hiap lai and her played with my hair last time but it turned out cacat, luckily this time looked more decent :D

oh yes jack sparrow is love!

but too bad johnny depp has kids already, so i could only 望梅止渴 by kissing the poster

i think...i've done a bit too much of social suicide in year 2010 o.o

when i went back to my room i went kisiao again and took more kisiao photos like....

THIS!

and THIS!

hahaha i dunno what the heck i was thinking but yeahhhh i'll never make myself a 'lala' don't worry (coz im too old to be one)

makan lunch nao!