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我很烦。。真的很烦。。。

就好像不能够对全部的人完完全全坦白一样。。。

心很重。。。

很讨厌这样的感觉。。。

feels like a loser...

我不知道。。只是真的发生太多事情了，一时之间也很难全部说出来。。。

我只是觉得，我没有勇气面对未来。。。

太多太多东西，我真的累了。。。

不，我有资格说累吗？大家都在努力着，我有资格说累吗？

那种被束缚的感觉，很不好。。。

东西接踵而来，我还能负荷吗？

我没资格这么说，因为别人都比我更努力。。。

一直在想，我能做好一个speechie吗？是不是每个speechie都是要很开朗的？很擅于交际的？

这个社会容不容许一个有时候闷闷不乐，需要一些私人空间，比较内向的speechie?

我开始在怀疑我存在在这个社会里面的价值。。

有时候我看我自己，我根本就是。。。好像很多东西都弄不好似的。。

我很累可是我没有资格说累你知道吗？

我凭什么？我算什么？

我已经很努力在observe了。。。难道没有再进步的机会吗？

我很想逃出来。。。

my weekend~

sigh..i know i should blog on my mt buller trip as i promised on my previous post, but i just don't feel like writing the post at the moment, so.....i'll post it next time can?? it's not really procrastinating since i'm still updating! just that i'm updating different stuffs instead :P

went grocery shopping @ northland with phyllis yesterday, and we had lunch at sushi sushi, not bad, but i still prefer kinsahi's sushis..

guess what? i bought a box of SUPER HUGE strawberries that only costed me $1.90!!! it's super cheap since there's around 9-10 super huge strawberries per box :D

this is not the largest one

and it's great to sink your teeth in one of these amazingly sweet strawberries!

but i reckon that the best best best way of eating a strawberry is to eat it with chocolate ice cream (some say with warm, melted chocolate but i think that's a bit sick for me)

the idea of stuffing chocolate ice cream into the strawberry is actually inspired by yong tau foo..LOL!

'mmmmmmm~~' to the max!

oh oh and i had awesome+authentic korean dinner prepared by emily (my tower RA's girlfriend) and her korean friends..will upload the pics as soon as i get em! can't believe i actually finished a bottle of beer (dun tell my parents ah...shhhhh), but really had fun last nite!

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yep here comes the highlight of my week --- sunday market!! it's pretty much similar to the pasar malams in malaysia, and it reminds me of those really nice moments i had with my dinner gang, the times when we go to nilai pasar malam by bus..

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handmade soaps! it comes with all sorts of different smells eg strawberry, peach, frangipani,lavender etc etc...thinking of buying these as a souvenir for my friends back home!

cute handphone pouches..

candies!

super duper yummy GOZLEME (turkish mountain bread)!! it totally made my day man. there were lots of people queueing up for it!

the taste is actually 98% similar to murtabak (a type of indian prata thingy with meat inside), yummy yummy~



oh and this is the thing that really freaked me out...

mexican walking fish! eeewwww~i think ALL amphibians are gross, let it be frogs, toads or this mexican walking fish.

if i'm not mistaken, it's called 娃娃鱼 in chinese, meaning "doll-fish"..

umm are they..mating? if so, there'll be even more mexican walking fishes in the future and that will be even more gross *faint faint faint*

beautiful flowers at affordable prices!

last but not least, Homer and Bart Simpson being 'hanged'! lol~

till then!

preston market-菜市场如战场

春天快来了！路上处处（偏偏除了我的学校以外）能够看到这些开粉红色的花的树！很美啊！

不知道为什么最近有这种感想。。就是来到澳洲读书过后，真正学会独立。。学会自己做饭，学会每个星期六去买菜买肉买水果（不买就饿死啦）。。

介绍一下我这个礼拜做的其中两样菜。。

金针菇炒garlic prawns, floormate说好好味

我的韩国floormate（她搬出去了，好想念她）教我做的korean BBQ pork，她说过微焦的口感是最正宗的。。好吃 :)

因为之前我把onion跟肉都放在korean chilli paste+basil leaves一起腌，所以连onion自己都很入味！

好啦，今天在跟phyllis一起施行我们的weekly routine---grocery shopping的时候，我突然间很有兴致决定要拍照，让在大马的朋友们更了解我在这里的日常生活 :)

每个星期六是我和phyllis的grocery shopping day，就是会去买蔬果和肉类。如果想买asian food，就会去preston market..只是我们不常去，因为比northland（另一个我们平常去的）远，要走好一段路呢。

来到澳洲过后，终于可以了解家庭主妇每个礼拜去买菜的生活，而且还要烦恼每天该煮什么，分量要多少。。而且买完过后要提着沉甸甸的东西回宿舍。。相信如果有看我的blog的留学生也会很有同感吧！

为了减少负担，我和Phyllis决定买shopping trolley!! 有了它，就不用一直提着很重很重的东西到处走啦！推一推就行了 :)

马来西亚的朋友可能会觉得它看起来很奇怪（是我刚来这里对它的第一印象），可是这里去grocery shopping的人，好多都用它呢，因为真的太方便了！

不知道为什么今天人多得可怕。。人来人往的。。

龙眼的季节来咯！phyllis很开心地买了一些。。我不喜欢吃，所以没买。

看到陈慧琳代言的月饼，我才发现中秋节快到了（是啊都说即使是melbourne，也会卖很多亚洲的食品，包括月饼在内）。。才不要在melbourne买月饼，一定很贵！

海报下面是melbourne出版的中文报刊。

很喜欢这档由希腊人开的水果档，他们很friendly，最重要是水果便宜品质又好！不幸入镜的正是我的fake twin -- phyllis chan!

买了蔬果，我们就用很快的速度去肉类的department，再迟一些，肉类可能就要卖光了！

preston最大的asian grocery shop...里面不只有卖中国的食品，还有新加坡，马来西亚，印尼，泰国，越南的。。统统都有！我的sambal 啊，kaya啊，curry paste啊，就是在这里买的！

在这么多种的饺子里面，我很喜欢的是这个猪肉高丽菜水饺！煮鸡汤，然后配面，然后加这个水饺一起吃，很好吃的哦。

走去tram stop的时候看到这个警车，就拍下来了。。（注意看那个车牌是MCD...lol）

每个星期六就是我和phyllis做“师奶”的日子。。。去买东西久了，我们就会知道哪里的onion最便宜，哪里的鸡肉最新鲜，哪里的猪肉最便宜，哪里的马铃薯比较大，比较美，哪里的水果摊最多offer（例如买2盒草莓就送1盒的）...A1 curry煮malaysian curry最好吃...golden curry煮japanese curry最好味....

不过能够学习这些东西，真的是很棒的体验！

下回预告：mount buller 滑雪记

little things that make me happy =)

Julia F. drew this little smiley and pasted it on my water bottle. and I drew the confused/curious face and pasted it below. To me it's more than just a smiley =)

My fake twin, Phyllis bought this lovely Skittles T-shirt from Hong Kong! She has a white colour one and we plan to erm....eh hem...(you'll guess the rest)..Thanks FEELEES!

I spotted this super cute toy puppy from a huge pile of free costumes provided by Chisholm for the op shop ball! Saw it while other people were scavenging goodies for op shop ball, so I took it back (it's not stealing anyway, ppl could just grab everything there because it was provided by chisholm and people could just simply take those op shop stuffs and wear it+keep it). Wanted to call it 毛毛 (mao2 mao2, means furry furry) but realized that the name is a bit too common and uncreative (no offence to those people whose doggies or pets are called 毛毛) , so at the end I decided to call it 毛毛 BUT by it's cantonese pronounciation, which is mo3 mo1! Momo~~

I had this for my lunch! Thanks heaps to my floormate..He made this for me, so touched! Looks like a pretty simple meal but it tasted heavenly.

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thx viyina..she bought this fr China, it's really thoughtful of her :)